For several days my mind had not been at ease. The room felt too close, and the small sounds of the evening seemed to gather around me without meaning. My wife was inside, coaxing the child to sleep. The courtyard had settled into silence. I put on a light coat and stepped out, thinking I might walk by the lotus pond for a while.
The path was familiar, but at night it had become another path. Shadows lay across it in strips and patches. The trees along both sides stood quietly, their leaves crowded together, and when a breeze passed through them they made a soft, dry sound, like pages being turned somewhere far away.
The Narrow Path
I often walked this road, yet that evening it seemed newly discovered. Moonlight slipped through the branches and fell unevenly on the ground. Some places were pale, some almost black; the contrast made the path feel deeper than it did in daylight.
There was no one else around. Walking alone in such a night, I felt a small freedom. The roles and duties of the day withdrew for a moment. I did not need to speak, answer, explain, or keep up with anyone. I only needed to walk.
The Lotus Pond
The pond opened before me. Lotus leaves covered the water, layer upon layer, spreading out into the dimness. In the night they looked darker and fuller, like round umbrellas held close together. Among them stood white blossoms: some fully open, some still folded, as if they were about to say something but had chosen silence.
A faint breeze moved over the pond. The leaves trembled lightly, and the flowers moved with them. Their fragrance was not heavy; it arrived quietly, almost by accident, like a song heard from a distant house. The water answered the breeze with fine ripples, and the moonlight broke into small pieces upon it.
Moonlight
The moonlight poured over the leaves and flowers as gently as water. A thin mist floated above the pond, making everything seem veiled. Nothing was hidden, but nothing was too clear either. The light softened the edges of the world, and the lotus pond became something halfway between a real place and a dream.
Tree shadows fell along the bank. Some were dense, some faint; together they resembled a wash of ink not yet dry. Moonlight and shadow crossed each other without conflict. The scene was still, and yet the stillness seemed alive. If one looked only briefly, nothing happened; if one looked longer, everything seemed to breathe.
A Thought of Lotus Gathering
Standing there, I thought of old songs about gathering lotus. I imagined southern waters, slender boats moving between green leaves, young voices calling and answering, laughter drifting over the surface. That world was far from me, but the pond before my eyes gave it shape for a moment.
Still, imagination remained imagination. There were no boats tonight, no songs, no figures among the leaves. There was only the pond, the moon, and myself standing by the bank. Perhaps that was enough. The liveliness belonged elsewhere; the quiet belonged here.
Returning
I turned back along the path. The shadows were the same, and so was the moonlight, but something in me had been loosened. My worries had not vanished, yet they no longer felt as sharp. They had been washed a little by the night air.
When I reached home, the house was still. The child must have fallen asleep. I opened the door softly and returned to ordinary life. But the moonlight over the lotus pond remained with me, cool and faint, like a quiet surface inside the heart.
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